我執

心是尖锐的，不是宽博的，它执着在每一点上，却并不活动。   

 （泰戈尓，《漂鳥集》）

虛假

你有勇氣孤獨嗎？
還是僅僅迷戀孤獨的浪漫？

不要溫習孤獨者的姿態。

你只是一個幻想孤獨的囚徒。
你就活在你的虛假裡頭。

W 如是說。

自怨

W 如是說：

不要怨言他人。

因為你不願起步，

他人離去，不是離棄，

而是重新上路。

不要怨沒有選擇只得留下，

因為你選擇了停滯。

凡具有生命者，都不断的在超越自己。而你又做了什么？

车祸

精神恍惚。发生车祸。撞到了一辆车。

还好没人受伤。

好想就说是因为4:30的魔咒。

但是，那是一个借口。

真的是糟糕。到现在还在觉得自己太大意，太不责任了。

对方也真的好脾气。

我们两人互相查问，然后，共撑雨伞，引导交通。

看着长长的阻塞，想着很多人一定很懊恼。

一个小时候，车被拖走了。

我向他致歉，道谢。

他说：没事就好。

但是，心里还是非常的不安和愧羞。

再想想，生命真的无常。

4:30am

有兩個星期了。總在凌晨4點半突然醒來。

這是什麼魔咒？

In certainty...

L dreamt that he was dying. Cancer. 

He was told that he had only a few weeks. L wasn't afraid of death as it had become a certainty. The certainty was an assurance, and a reminder to love those he treasure. And then in the dream,  L saw R.

In that moment L saw that R would have let go of him one day. 

R knew in certainty that H would not be around anymore.  What could she do in the face of such certainty?  R wished that it was not that certain.  R wished she could still hope. But now she could only learn to let go.

L suddenly realised that he was already dead and yet he still held on to the memory of R as if he was still alive. But R's memory of him would transform and maybe fade off. They would be in different dimensions of existence. H woke up and felt a deep sadness of that certainty of loss and letting go.

苦闷的鲁迅

鲁迅；


＂其实我的意见也一时不容易了然，因为其中含有许多矛盾，教我自己说，或者是人道主义与个人主义消常起伏罢。所以我忽而爱人，忽而憎人；做事的时候，有时确为别人，有时却为自己玩玩，有时竟因为希望生命从速消磨，所以拼命的做。＂