In certainty...

L dreamt that he was dying. Cancer. 

He was told that he had only a few weeks. L wasn't afraid of death as it had become a certainty. The certainty was an assurance, and a reminder to love those he treasure. And then in the dream,  L saw R.

In that moment L saw that R would have let go of him one day. 

R knew in certainty that H would not be around anymore.  What could she do in the face of such certainty?  R wished that it was not that certain.  R wished she could still hope. But now she could only learn to let go.

L suddenly realised that he was already dead and yet he still held on to the memory of R as if he was still alive. But R's memory of him would transform and maybe fade off. They would be in different dimensions of existence. H woke up and felt a deep sadness of that certainty of loss and letting go.